We’re very excited, blessed, ecstatic, nervous, all of the above! But more than anything we are appreciative that we’ve been given another beautiful and healthy baby.

We’re a little nervous about them being so close together but as they get older it will get easier. Hopefully they will be BFFs!

Much love to you all, thanks for all of your support.

And I will continue to do live shows, however the will most likely just be chat shows!

xoxo

Hey there, if there’s any confusion for you guys I just wanted to make sure I made a note of it via blog, the website is

http://www.auction.therealtoriblack.com !!

Make your way over there and check it out! New items updated EVERY monday!

xoxo

Since my last post about the site, I realized that I can’t allow Premium’s mistakes to hurt my fans. Even if you aren’t getting exactly what I want you to be getting, I can’t allow you to receive nothing from your memberships to toriblack.com. So as of next week I will resume my Wednesday cam shows, and I will be starting to upload some of my newest scenes because you all deserve it!

There will be discussions, and Premium and I will come to some sort of understanding, or we will have to make a move. But in the mean time I can’t punish you for being loyal.

Also, we’re FINALLY getting my all-exclusive DVD up for sale, where it will be available for $20 for everyone! We’ve discounted it to show our appreciation for those sticking by me through everything, and we hope you love the content!

We’re also beginning to work on the second volume, which means the evil side is about to shine through. Vol 1: Your Eyes Say is pretty, it’s nice and sweet. Vol 2: Monster will be everything but! So whatever flavor of Tori Black you prefer, we’ll make sure to provide for you!

And don’t forget, if you collect all 5 of our exclusive DVDs you’ll be awarded a prize!

Last but not least, we will be putting the new 2013 poster up for pre-sale beginning on Valentine’s day as scheduled! I’m excited

Much love to you all.

xoxo

Man, I hate to disappoint you all… And just when I finally got MimeFreak to get involved with the show. We were planning out so many fantastic live shows for you guys, as we feel the live section of my site has been sorely lacking. Now this.

As I’ve mentioned before, I’ve been working really hard with PremiumCash to revamp my site. I don’t like the dated, template, basic site they offer everyone in their networks so I was working with their designers to come up with something fresh and new. Not only have they launched my “new” site without informing me OR asking me to give the final go ahead on the changes, they added new content on their schedule, WITHOUT any editing(which is included as part of our contract) and they’ve taken the greater part of the year to make any real headway in the design. The first drafts they showed me looked like a simple change in color template yet it took them months to accomplish.

Anyway, without hashing into every detail, I got wind today that the only thing they’re changing is the tour section. Now I understand enticing new members is always important, but what about my fans who have been with me for so long? Don’t they deserve a revamped site, too? One that I helped design personally? Isn’t that what you all signed up for? They told me that they CANNOT change the website, and that EVERY site on their network MUST be the same template.

I don’t know about you guys but I’m not paying to have a run-of-the-mill, standard site and my fans aren’t paying for access to one either. Why can’t MY site be designed how I envision it? Where is it in the contract that they have the control to decide what template I use? This content is all mine, I own it. I informed them that if they choose not to help me create, host and market my site the way I see it, I will take my content to someone who will do it justice. Is that too much to ask?

We’re sitting on HOURS of content. We have BTS, we have scenes, we have PERSONAL footage. These are things I’d LOVE to share with you all, but why would I want to also share it (at quite a high rate, might I add) with a company that is simply uploading my hard work to a bland cookie-cutter website? That’s not what I want and that’s not what you want! I simply want to get what I’ve paid for. I’ve split my money each and every month to have people HELP me achieve the look and feel I think represents me and who I am the best. The idea of owning a site is so that my fans get a chance to see the real me, and now that I have more time on my hands to deliver, it seems as though it’s all going to waste because the people I trusted to reach my goal with me are interested in no such thing.

I hope you guys understand and see where I’m coming from. I don’t want to punish you for their mistakes, but I don’t want to allow them to continue to hurt my communication to you via toriblack.com.

The whole reason I created THIS site was so that there was no one in the way. I update, along with my ONE webmaster, who happens to be a great family friend. Those are the only ones you can trust, I guess, to get the job done right.

UGH.

Love you guys, sorry, again.

And I know some people are rolling their eyes, like; “Oh, another pornstar who got married and will only perform with their husband..” But hear me out before you question… Being in love in the most intoxicating sensation there is, and adding sexuality to it it like adding fuel to the fire. When you have chemistry with someone and you’re hopelessly in love at the same time, the sex becomes explosive. Even when we’re both exhausted and we barely move and the rest of the world might see us as “boring” for me, it’s nothing but fireworks.

I want you all to experience MY truth. My blog site has always been about that, but my hardcore site has left a lot to be desired. I want that to change. I don’t want to leave you all in the dark anymore. Now, it’s our personal preference that we don’t show sex the way everyone else does, I don’t think you’ll ever see the ACTUAL penetration, but we’re gonna get you as close as possible and were going to get really creative taking you to the depths of our sexuality together. We don’t want to leave you out, but at the same time we love our intimacy and our privacy.

So those of you that are members of my other site, expect my webcams to look a lot different, as well as the new scenes to be uploaded.

Speaking of uploads, I’m still having problems with my webmaster over there it’s making it hard for me to want to send the 30-some scenes I have sitting on my desk! It really sucks for you guys and I’m working as fast as possible to remedy the situation. MimeFreak has also gotten involved, and depending, there may be a change in venue if you catch my drift…

Much love to you all!

xoxo

exit, unlock the cage

see like an everaging sage

unlock a page

fill an ever aging cage

exit, impact like a sage

impact an unlocked page

ever fill a cage

RAGE like a sage

unlock your ever aging RAGE

blurt out across a page

exit out of your RAGEFUL cage

turn pages like a sage

engage that RAGE

harness and spill it on a page

impact the slithering cage

never slither deceitful sage.

-end-

Dedicated to my Mom

plagued by my own breath

reaching out to tainted death

putting holes in my mind like drugs

‘I’m the only one that no one loves’

to the untrained eye, hopeless I was

but that’s just not what a mother like you does

resentment inside me grew

for the past I thought I knew

what was shown to me

was a life of hypocracy

full of victims and killers, living inside

and yet I always wondered, ‘Why me, lord, why?’

crying out to those around

mostly to those who knocked me down

but it’s my throne again they’ll soon see

and that they never ever were supposed to be

this I learned on demand

I had to, out there roaming the land

me and only me I had

my shoulder for comfort when I got sad

no, not sad, but lonely

tired of being the one and the only

on flat land in the middle of a storm

the wind, to my mind, it whipped and it tore

exposed to lightning, rain and hail

hiking along my own unplotted trail

you gave me this along with a chance

when not even I would’ve taken another glance

my moon changing my tides inside

twisting around all my weakened lies

what seems to be my blurred face

was sharpened and tweaked by just an embrace

I remember it well that day in the woods

standing there covered in a bright orange hood

you came to me like a blessing

the ground was shaky and you were still testing

to see if I was new

and how I’d look at you

but no matter what

by chance or luck

you still smiled at me

it was then I could really see

you really loved me

and me is all I ever needed to be.

-end-

nothing

a blank novel

millions of mountains

fear

such a backwards game

why engage

why speak

tell

try

move.

I don’t exist today

float

people watch

stir

the squeak of grinding teeth

limbo

why am I writing?

do I stop

because I have no purpose

who am I talking to

acidic stomach

burning

enraging my soul

time for a fast

fEast

one more ‘E’ will feed

but never fill

binge on false hope

blind rage

in a daze

corrupted maze

trapping me in this cage

goliath and david

hatred

passionately dead

it’s completely incred-

ulous, us, we, me

how can you not see

smack like a ball off a tee

your condemning decree

I must

be blunt

I’m on a hunt

it’s Vegas or bust

crusty lust

infidelity

fuck the amenities

came straight at me

fucking commodity

I’m onto it

just give me a bit

a minute

to fulfill it

your prophecy

honestly

I’m on a separate plane

yours seems so mundane

pain in the express lane

is this really humane?

pumping into me

this entity

seeping into thee, me

all this hypocrisy.

nothing

a dusty canyon

who heard the voice?

the song

it was there

now gone

played like a pawn

queen at heart, though

cracked wing

her tune doesn’t ring

hardened

marble

like a fossil of beauty

an empty shell

she’s fleeing

the world not seeing

hovering over their own noses

rhinoplasty

narcissism

meanwhile the melody

shattered

thinking it no longer mattered

silently raging

waging

war

soc-”I”-ety

no room for comm-”UNITY”

too big

it doesn’t fit

excuses

starting to get

ruthless

destroying the earth

and it hurts

this just won’t work

new method

clear this mud

no more mugs

of freedom

you don’t even believe ‘em

you’re just boozing

the woe is oozing

it’s seeping

life is sleeping

dormant

she’s a cunt

and he’s a dunce

this way

that way

who’s got the joystick, anyway?

mass confusion

is a complete illusion

we know better

the word starts with a letter

ends with a different one

we’ll give you none

we don’t wanna tell

what if the wall of China fell

basking

in the masking

stupid, it’s selfish

and outlandish

crush me

hush me

love me

hate me

next thing you’ll do

is barrate me

where’s the song

still long gone

away from this box that I’m on

ranting

and panting

my soap box

won’t break the locks

but I won’t stop

I’m watching the clock

time bomb

it’s on

the terrorist

inside the lie.

-end-

XOXO

Questions from travtime78@yahoo.com:

1. who has the biggest ego in the industry?

I don’t answer questions like that. It’s hard enough being in a catty group of women, I really don’t want to contribute with gossip.
2. any advice for shy guys on approaching beautiful women? what do we say? how do we compete with the alpha males?

I think shy guys have just as many opportunities as the bolder ones. Some girls prefer someone who is more reserved(which I think is a nicer word for shy). Just make sure you don’t disappear into the background and don’t be afraid to say hello. It’s as simple as saying “Hello, my name is ____ how is your day going?” Women like to feel “normal” in a sense. If a guy seems to amazed by how I look it sends the wrong message, like that’s the most important thing to you. If you notice something simple like what book I’m carrying or the perfume I’m wearing, I feel you’re paying a different sort of attention. It puts me less “on the spot.” I don’t want to feel like a trophy. I want to feel interesting. If that helps, lol.
3. what do you say to people in the industry who slander you on their twitter accounts and call you out as a fake and phony?

Everyone is entitled to their own opinions. It’s a free country and you can say what you want about me because the people who really matter know who I am and what I stand for. People who slander me might as well be in China they’re so far from me and my reality. They have no idea who I am. Some would even say it really has nothing to do with me and everything to do with their insecurity, whatever that may be. I don’t really pay it any mind. People will ALWAYS talk.
4. can this be a weekly segment.. ask tori?

That would be ideal, but I am a very busy lady!!! I will try to make it closer to every week than it is right now, lol.
5. you recently commented on your autobiography (love the way u write btw), is this something that will be published at some point

I’m thinking so, however there are a lot of extremely personal details that I’ll have to come to terms with sharing. I kind of call myself out on a lot of things and it’s not easy to face. Think of a therapy session, published. It’s pretty raw. But if I grow the balls enough to do it, yes.
6. i have 15 month old twin boys, how do i salvage enough energy to give it to my woman the way she deserves.. between work, housework, and being the best father i can be i am exhausted….

I’m pretty much always exhausted hahaha! Twins! WHEW! I understand how you’re feeling, just remember taking 15, 30 even 45 minutes to go exhaust the kids is well worth it if it means an hour or more of quiet for you to get some things done. Take advantage of activities they like, if they like art, edible paint, plastic drop cloth, nothing but their diapers on! Fun for hours and as long as they’re contained you’re good to go! We like bath crayons, my son will entertain himself for a while with those and they wipe right off with water(NO SCRUBBING!)… Take naps, and eat a good breakfast, that always helps me!
7. can you come to the midwest more?.. i live in west central illinois… you are always soooo far away….

LOL I’ll do what I can, I go where I’m called! Put in a request at your local adult store or favorite strip joint and see if they hire features!

Questions from nikki1982ca@yahoo.com:

1) What do you love about other women?

Women have an entire different type of sensuality, a different mind frame. Sometimes it can be more of a challenge, sometimes it can be more comforting. But the biggest thing is that it’s intriguing. It’s something I don’t do regularly.
2) How do you react to female fans?

Same way I react to my male fans; it depends on their personalities!

Questions from kuromachin@gmail.com:

1)How long has Prima and Kenya been with you?

I have had Prima since 2008 and Kenya since 2009! They’re my first babies!
2)Have you ever travelled to Europe, Africa, Asia or Australia?

I’ve been to Japan and Australia, have yet to go to Europe and Africa! I love to travel, just want to do more for fun when I have time to really explore and enjoy myself!
3)What would you change in your life if you ever had the chance?

Nothing. I believe that everything I’ve experienced have molded me into the person I’ve become, I believe regrets hold you back, and each thing I’ve gone through has been a lesson. To change it now would almost be to deny the positive lessons I’ve learned from them, if that makes any sense. That’s not to say my life’s been easy! The easy answer is a million things, but I’d like to believe everything worth having is worth fighting for, and I’ve done a lot of fighting to get where I am in my life, my head and in my heart. I’m proud of the accomplishments I’ve achieved and the distance I’ve travelled.
4)When was your first real kiss?

Honestly, very young. I had a “real” kiss at 8. It was far too early and I didn’t really understand the importance of it until later.
5)What do you think of 50Shades XXX Parody? you could have landed in the main role if you were still active.

I don’t pay attention to any of that stuff. Lol, not to sound bitter. It just isn’t pertinent in my life anymore. Even when I was active I only paid attention to the gigs I landed, not the rest of the movies.
6)Do speak any languages besides English?

I WISH!
7)Have you ever get into a physical fight with someone when you were in high school/college

Too many… Not proud of them. I was less of a talker and more of a fighter.
8)What are your favourite cars?

I love a Bentley. Classy, sleek, sophisticated.
9)Gangnam Style, will you try it?

Um, no. HAHAHA. Sorry, I’m not a fad type of person.
10)Are you into Cosplay? (check out cosplayers LeeAnna Vamp)

I’ve done a little of it, but I wouldn’t say it’s a fantasy of mine. It’s more about pleasing others for me than enjoying it directly.

Questions from aj2475@gmail.com:

1. what made you first get into the adult entertainment world?

It was a quick decision. There wasn’t a whole lot of thought that went into it. I wanted to get out of the house, pay my own bills, escape.. I was a restless kid who wanted to do things my way. This was an easy way to make money, live free and wild.
2. when you were younger(high school) were you an outgoing, popular type or a shy, independent type?

I was a troublemaker! I was very outgoing, people either liked me or hated me. I didn’t have a specific clique but most people I spent a good amount of time with were crazy like me. I talked to anyone who was nice, though. I partied a lot in high school and ended up getting sent away, I was an “out of control teen.”
3. What is the total movies you have been in and total awards you have won?

Oh, geez. I have no idea. You’ll have to look that up.
4. How has your family felt about your career choice?

Like any other family would, they freaked. Took a while to rebuild relationships, and some still have a hard time holding a conversation with me without looking at me strange. Some people just choose not to look outside the box they live in. I can’t help that.
5. How long did you know and then date your husband before you tied the knot?

I knew him for about a year and a half before we dated, and then things moved pretty quickly from there. We were pregnant about 7 months later, engaged after my son was born and haven’t actually had our ceremony yet, but soon!
6. How did i never hear about your pregnancy or baby;s birth?!

I kept it very low. I actually didn’t announce anything until after he was born. The blog is actually on this site. I didn’t want people bothering me with their opinions of my life choices. I wanted peace and quiet. I got exactly what I wanted .
7. how is your little tiger?

He’s great! Sassy as all hell like mommy and daddy. Healthy as an ox and smart as a whip. Can’t ask for anything more. I will definitely have my hands full!
8. Will you continue to make films with your husband?

He shoots me, and we’re looking into ways we can get closer to a boy/girl scene, however we will not be having traditional sex on camera. We choose to keep that for us!
9. What have you been up to now that your are primarily done with adult films?

Being a mom! It’s full-time. I write, work on business plans and ideas for the future, but mainly I’m a mommy and I love it!
10. Are you at all geeky? (into Star Wars, Sci Fi, comics, super heroes, etc)

I would say I’m very geeky, but moreso because I research everything to death. I have a wealth of random information I store for rainy days, but if you ask me a question about pop culture I’m pretty clueless! As far as sic-fi, I’m not too into it, I do like playing lego batman on xbox if that counts! hahaha
11. When and how will i ever be able to meet you or even get a personal video saying hi and how things are going?! (I live in Los Angeles lol)

Personal videos may be available shortly, there are events such as exxxotica where you can come meet me, as well as club appearances, follow me on Pheed and Twitter to keep up to date with different events! @misstoriblack

XOXO guys! Keep the questions coming!

Casualties of war are no more or less innocent than those children we lost today, but there’s something to be said of the astounding lunacy of the elementary school shooting this morning. How is it that one loses grip on their soul to the point where this is LESS painful than what’s inside? Coming from someone who has lived through my own tragedies and hardships, I understand feeling crazy. I understand losing touch with sanity and even my own heart, as facing the contents was much too unbearable. I understand pain. Of all people, I do. However, of all of the heinous acts I’ve committed in my life time, never has one even so much as scraped the surface of this massacre.

I assume there was an inner jealousy of these children. Their purity, their innocence, maybe because they didn’t hurt as he did, but if I try and proclaim to understand the reason behind this mad mans killing I’d be an outright liar. What happened to you? How did you grow into this shell of a human now laid out on the floor of an elementary surrounded by your victims? The thought is horrifying. How could we create such a monster? And furthermore, how could we give him weapons to act on his delusions?

I could go in a thousand directions with this event. I’m a new mother, but there’s nothing new to me about the innocence and beauty of a child. I’ve always been around children and anyone who’s watched one grow, I have no need to explain to you the incredible miracles you witness on a daily basis. You already know. Knowing these things makes each and every child my child, in a sense. I feel close to the children I see throwing a temper tantrum in the grocery store because I understand. I know what they’re saying. I feel close to the giggles and I feel close to the scared children buried in their daddies arms. I love them as if they we’re part of me, because they ARE part of me. Part of my heart.

The loss of any child is painful enough, but if I take a moment to look at the motive of this killing, there’s something so dark and sinister it pains me to even think of his childhood. What must’ve he seen? How did we fail him? Political motives were non-existent. These were no casualties of war, unless we are speaking of the war inside the mind and heart of the killer. This is a different loss. I weep for every child lost to any circumstance, accident, tragedy, war, disease, you name it. It’s all miserable. But this weighs on me like a ton of bricks.

What did the other children who survived see? What did they hear? Who lost their best friend? Who will wake tonight in screams? Who won’t sleep at all? What child will be numb to this tragedy because it was too much to ingest at such a young age? Who will REALLY survive?

And WHAT THE FUCK ARE WE DOING ABOUT GUN CONTROL?

Sure these were legally owned guns, but what about ammunition? What about types of guns? Why does one need a semi-automatic? No civilian has need for any automatic weaponry, no need for that amount of bullets, and what’s to be said of locked weapons? Why did he have MULTIPLE guns accessible to him? I personally believe in a taser and a knife. Debilitate and escape. Even if I did choose to procure a handgun, I’d have ONE and it would have just enough bullets to handle an emergency and the rest would be locked away. The gun would be hidden and unspoken of in my house, only myself and my husband would know it even existed. Any other weapons can be locked away and stored. I believe in having the right to defend yourself, but how about buy a gun and then sell it without any paperwork or documentation of where or who the gun has gone to? We’ve helped strap Mexico for all of their gang wars and violence in the streets, we’ve strapped thugs in the streets of our own country, and we’ve strapped the lunatics that have unleashed the devil onto our schools. When will enough be enough? What can we do to save our rights AND our children?

I have cried several times today imagining the faces of the victims. Imagining the school floor covered in tiny bodies riddled with bullet holes. Ages 5 – 10. I have so many children in my family in that age range and I can’t even fathom their deaths, let alone their brutal murders.

I could go on, my tears will continue to come, but I’m left with cuddling close to my son, sending my love to those babies in heaven, and doing everything I can to try and understand. Understanding the reason is half the fight in stopping this madness. If the killer is never understood, how do we help the pained souls destined to follow in the same footsteps?

I wonder what I would’ve done if no one ever helped me.

I will hold my family close to night and thank the powers that be that they’re happy and healthy.

RIP to the children of Sandy Hook Elementary, Newtown, Connecticut.

So, I just got back from a trip to Philly. I was featuring at Cheerleaders, a club I’ve been at before, but I thought I’d tell you a little about my weekend.

MAN O MAN I’ve been sick. I don’t know what hit me but I swear since I came back from Japan(which was from Nov.17th – Nov.20th) I’ve had a runny nose and a cough. Now, that wasn’t the worst part… Every time I sleep that upper part of my throat, by my nose, gets RAW. Like painful to breathe, you think you’re going to rip open raw. Not fun. And that’s a spot you can’t even drink water to wet. My voice has been in and out, my energy has been super low, and I’ve had a TON of things going on.

So, as the time came to fly out to Philly, you can imagine what my mood was… Thinking to myself that I’m going to be miserable all weekend, I packed my bags, made sure my son was packed and ready for his weekend with his Godmother, and sucked it up, hoping for the best. Since I had MimeFreak with me, I knew that I would be taken good care of, but I still wasn’t excited to be leaving the house. At this point it took all of my energy just to take Chance out for a walk or check the mail, let alone shake my ass with a smile on my face.

BUT, as fortune would have it, we had a GREAT weekend despite all ailments.

Despite the fact that I forgot how cool the management at this club was(hard to keep track of all the people I meet in my line of work), we were greeted warmly and were offered nothing but the best in service.

First show was a one-show night on a Thursday, most of these nights are slow and quiet, as most people wait until the weekend to come out to see me. I was grateful that I could expect a slower evening. By mistake, I expected to be able to perform my usual four-song show, lasting around 18 minutes usually. HA. I almost fainted when I got off the stage. I didn’t take into account how sick I’d been, and the fact that I don’t go on the road as often as I used to. Needless to say, I didn’t continue doing four-song shows over the weekend. Three songs was plenty long enough.

Even though it was a Thursday, a decent sized crowd welcomed me, which was great, and the only reason I got through my aforementioned four songs. If it wasn’t for the love and the energy, I probably would’ve walked off the stage early.

There was so much lady love there, too! Tons of females came out to see me, which is unusual for my dance bookings. Usually my female fans come out for autographs when I’m at conventions or stores, but not at this club! Anyway, it was great to have such a diverse crowd, older, younger, male and female. Not to mention the house girls were absolutely awesome. They came out and showed love every single time I hit the stage. Usually house girls feel threatened by features because they assume we take business away from them, but it’s actually quite the contrary, we can bring a lot of new faces in to the clubs and work with the girls as well. You scratch my back, I’ll scratch yours.

Well, I had a great weekend. I survived with my illness and all and made it back home safely to a very happy baby boy, unfortunately found ourselves locked out of the house, however. Godmom forgot to grab the keys on her way out, so we waited for a locksmith for almost an hour and a half. AWESOME. Exactly what everyone wants to do on a cold day after flying all the way across country. Not only that but we had only slept for about an hour after work at the club before heading to the airport.

Of course we made it back in safely, I slept for what felt like 25 hours, lol. Still fighting this damn cold though!!

So, I apologize for being MIA but I’ve been a busy and very sick little bee. Video blog coming soon And we have TONS of footage from Philly, including stage shows, that will be up on toriblack.com. We also have some naughty videos from when I was really sick – they’re actually more funny than naughty. New meaning for “super stuffed” HAH. Anyway. Enough of my perv jokes. Have a good night everyone! xoxo